Penny For Your Thoughts, Part 2 by J. Scott

Walking becomes a difficult task. It requires you to concentrate on going from point A to point B without thinking about all the vantage points an enemy sniper might take advantage of before he sends a tumbling 7.62 through you sinus cavity, or key-holes your forehead, or stings your clavicle with cauterizing tracers. And then there are the defilades, the many defilades giving way to ambush: rising knolls and sparkling fountain heads impossible to see past, impossible to ignore, especially for the grateful enemy who will make you bleed from many holes with simple pull of trigger...
Gha-cunk, Gha-cunk, Gha-cunk

A healthy three round burst sending a volley of AK-fire throughout your body…and do you see him? This enemy dressed like the rest, the crouching enemy lying in wait for the moment of attack, waiting for the next moment he can call, call to talk, talk to you and elect send to make IED.
If you can get past all the ways you might die in walking to class, or anywhere really, you have to switch gears because sooner or later you’ll be stepping into the classroom seated with students and not Hodgies or Marines, or even the USO. And here (in lecture) one must engage the professor in worthwhile discussion, observe what they have to say because it is important, as important as it was in Division Schools, or SOI, or in the process of interrogation, or when not to drive down streets named RPG Alley, or over bridges rigged with 155s waiting in due time to explode so violently into a head-numbing orb of rage that your bladder will pop before your skull cracks.
I present to you the ever evolving IED, set off by the same cells phones fellow students text with in class.
WTF?

But I do enjoy walking around campus, my lovely campus, and I look forward to autumn when the leaves change colors and the water fountains ice over and begin to stop smelling like the men’s restroom. But before that, when it’s that unbearably hot, when you feel sweat trickle out of your armpits and run down the side of your torso and drip onto hot parched brick, all of this again reminding you of the hiking and the patrolling and the…the urge to go back again, yes! to go back over there because you’ve not yet found that same type of disgruntled camaraderie in the civilian-sector, the same type of hateful love one Marine has for another, the same kind of “fuck the Corps eat the Apple” mantra that spawns from the disgusting lifestyle an 03 lives.
And you may never.

Penny for Your Thoughts, Part 1 by J. Scott

My campus is a nice campus. We have lots of paved brick and a good supply of Jesuits dressed in white gowns, white hoods, wrapped together by thick white rope. Strategically placed statues guard the campus: Indians (Native Americans), more Jesuits, Roman and Greek gods, poets, a guy named Ted, and a potbellied goblin. My favorite statue is a bronze one of Robert Frost, cast in a moment of inspiration right outside the library. He sits, pen in hand, contemplating, searching for something, looking up at nothing in particular, grinning as if to say “life is good.” Seeing Mr. Frost like that every day makes me happy, and I thank him for that. I wish more students looked like him. I mean, I wish more students looked frozen, speechless, harmless. Some days, I’ll walk through the center of the student body in between classes, taking a deep breath and reminding myself,
“They’re just babies.”

But I’ve had a hard time doing that lately; I’ve always had a hard time putting that thought into practice because it reminds me too much of crowd control in Iraq, which reminds me of M16s and concertina wire, which then reminds me of Bagdad, ambushes, shooting dead dogs, and taking pictures of the dead and the dead we shot. And you don’t need to show symptoms of an epileptic seizure while having a flashback, like most movies depict. You just have to be in the right place at the right time, which for me happens to be my campus on any given day.

So my walks to and from class are occasionally done on the sidewalks outlining my campus. Sometimes, however, a diesel truck might drive by and blow that sweet reminiscent smell of Hodgie-truck exhaust into the air, the grim perfume, the all too familiar smell of war and invasion, of burnt pita and burning oil and dried shit and fresh piss all mixed together to create a special kind of scent only you and maybe that guy over there wearing his unit’s tee-shirt might know about. And then I’m back to square one again, trying to remember and forget about a war still budding, the war still working its mysterious fog in and around the civilian-sector I’ve crossed into, that fog that followed me off the plane and into my room and under my bed and into my lungs. All the meanwhile I see gargantuan elephants stamping on the minds of combat veterans worldwide, killing us slowly, killing the ones who breathed in the fog that crept out from under the tent flaps, inhaling it, holding it, not releasing it. These are the ones who innocently and not so innocently wanted a peek, just a peek at these large beautiful elephants they all went to see one day.

The EG&A

We stole the Eagle from the Air Force,
The Anchor from the Navy,
The Rope from the Army.

And on the seventh day when God rested,

We overran his perimeter and stole the Globe,

And have been protecting our shores ever since.

The Luck Ones, by Chris Jones UMSC

Just who are the Lucky ones?

The ones who made it home,

From the first, second, and third tour,

However many they’d flown.

Just who are the Lucky ones?

The ones working in the rear,

Who help out greasing the gears,

Running supply there and here.

Just who are the Lucky ones?

The ones way up there,

Soaring high above in the air,

Only to be shot down, by anti-air.

Just who are the Lucky ones?

The ones who stayed home in the rear,

For they lost friends too,

Silent voices too loud to bear.

Just who are the Lucky ones?

The ones who lay in there,

They have no worries now,

Those are your Lucky ones,

The ones without a care.

Love

The wonderful love of a beautiful maid,
The love of a staunch, true man,
The love of a baby unafraid,
Have existed since time began.


But the greatest of loves,
The quintessence of love,
Even greater than that of a mother,
Is the tender, passionate, infinite love,
Of one drunken Marine for another.

Given to me by a dear and loving friend, Sgt. Quintero USMC
Written by, GySgt G. Gigg USMC (Ret)

Pick up your rifle and follow me, I am Marine Corps Infantry!

I am by no means an expert on war, life after war, or the Marine Corps. I have only dabbled in these areas, and I have enjoyed it.

I served in the Marine Corps from 2000-2004.

My MOS: 0352 (TOW Gunner).

As a TOW Gunner my job was to shoot wire guided missiles from the tops of hummers at tanks, armored personal carriers, and people. My time in Iraq lasted ten months: 2003-2004. I enrolled in college directly after my honorable discharge and have since worked odd jobs from teaching English in France to working as a cashier for a family run shoe store in St. Louis, Missouri.

Now, five years after the Marine Corps, I have almost graduated from St. Louis University with a BA in English, and I have no freakin’ idea what the hell I’ll do next.

I say this because I am not alone. There are thousands of other war veterans out there who have no freakin’ idea as to what they’ll do when they EAS (End of Active Service) or graduate from college.

Will I reenlist?

Go into law enforcement?

Teach English with an emphasis on the art of war?

Apply to the ATF, the FBI, the IRS?

Or maybe…maybe I will join the French Foreign Legion? La vie est belle.

This is my blog, and as I write it I come to the end of my academic career. The big question I often ask myself is whether I did the right thing by enlisting first and then going to college, or should have I gone to college and then been commissioned as a Marine Corps officer, a freakin’ butter-bar?

Writing in the first person is a selfish act (in boot camp everything is spoken in the 3^rd person), narcissistic even, but the American public, the civilian sector, should know what their veterans are doing after going to war, on and off the battlefield. We are as clueless about your lifestyle as you are about ours. In war the biggest question was, “what’s going on back home?” During the 2003 Iraq invasion we could only write to you with paper and ink stick, snail mail we called it. A year later we were able to call you once or twice a month. And now, depending on which unit you’re assigned to, it’s possible to call home via sat-phone or webcam almost every day and night.

My purpose in America sort of feels how it did in Al Qaim and Diwaniyah five years ago. I mean, imagine all of a sudden having to drop everything you’re doing and move to Iraq or Afghanistan. Only you have to live life as if nothing has changed, except the geography. You don’t know the language, you don’t know the food, and you don’t know the customs. Well, that’s how it is for me, and other returning veterans I’m assuming. Sometimes you feel like an alien, and other times you feel like a predator.

Alien vs. Predator?